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[15 Jun 2005|06:27pm] |
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hey okay well i havent updated in forever .. so i figure nows a good time to ... hm where should i start this summer has been quite interesting.. i had an awesome time in orlando with sarah alex and liz :] .. then sarah came back home with me for a week . she just left on saturday .. i hung out with brynnee and we had a uhmm well boring time lol.. but we made it fun ...so alex and i broke up . i broke up with him .. cause he's confused about things right now.. and im not gunna lie so am i .. im not gunna say what he's confused about cause i dont think its right to post his stuff all over my livejournal. but lets just say its about life. lol. i love him more than anythinggg on this entire planet. but he's so confusing.. and sometimes i think he's in it with me for the wrong reasons..and well he lies way to much, i wanna be with someone whos completely honest about everything. so i think he wants to try it with soemone else. and i am more than happy for him. and im ready to move on.. so thats the end of that.. now me on the other hand.. :] hmmm i have an amazing guy who cares about me. and i care about him. but im scared cuase after alex lying to me sooo many times.. i have a hard time trusting guys.. but he might be different i dont knw.. i hate talking about it cause i dont wanna jinx myself.. he gets back on sunday and i cant wait i miss him...i might let you guys know what happens... but im really really hungary .. im gunna go eat kfc . lol ill talk to you beautiful people later <3
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[31 May 2005|11:42pm] |
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helloooooo
well im in orlando with the beautiful sarah wenzel.. in sitting in her loft.. watching her to sit ups ?? with like an ab worker thing... and GUESS WHAT EVERYONE !!! SARAHS A PARTY GIRL NOW !!!!!! lol wow good times.. just kidding she got her belly button peirced yesterday it was so awesome lol i had fun me and lorna wanted her to cry .. but she didnt .. she was a big girl, my mommy said that she would take me to get mine done cause ive been begging my parents for months and now that sarah got one my mommy said i can too :] i am excited .. and i dont think they look slutty like some people think, i dont think a piercing says anything about you .. but alex begs to differ he thinks there slutty, and lol my daddy says he agrees with alex.. but anywaysssssss OMG i have to tell you guys adam told sarah he still had feelings for her!! i was sitting right next to her when he imed her it was greattt.. we knew it was coming he couldnt be happy with his mean girlfreiend for very long .. funn stuff ..im so excited to be here with baby .. weve been having fun .. hanging out watching movies going to the MALLL whoo whoo.. lol today me sarah and alex went to the mall, sarah and i tried on abuncha clothes and alex took pictures then we went into old navy and made alex try on clothes lol it was hilarious...im gunna get the pics developed.. were probly going to festival bay tomorrow to see madagascar at like 7 which i am excited about because ive been dying to see that movie. alex is excited too . haha not really BUT he will be .. liz is still at that stupid beach house and she wont come home to me... i dont get it !!!! shes my best friend and shes choosing to stay there rather then come home and hang out with me, im jealous.. we had plans and stuff and she basically jsut ditched me for randndddooommm people .. o well though . im having a blast with my bestest friend sarah lol ..hhaa she feels loved now.. and shes laughing and she wants me to let everyone know that BEAU LESTER SUCKSSSSSSS so if you know him let him know :] kk i will update later
BY THE WAY I LOVE ALEX BRANDON MORE THAN ANNYYYYTHINNGGGG !!! .. and im mad at him cuz he left at like 11 and i told him to call me when he got home so i wouldnt worry about him and its 12 and he has yet to call .. hmmm ..... --
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[23 May 2005|09:06pm] |
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okay i hate livejournal.. but im bored out of my mind.. i just got done running and im putting off writing this stupid speech on gay marriages.. im so unbelievably sick of school.. it seems like it just wont end... THEN i probably have to go for like 10 hours more of school sometime over the summer.. cuz of my stupid absences.. instead of failing me i guess thats what theyre doing... its gay but better then failing.. and having to repeat the 10th grade, which would suck.. but anyways... hmmmm brynne and i have been hanging out more again which makes me happy , we talked about alotta stuff, it nice to have a best friend here i guess. drama drama drama with her lol.. drama wiht everyone seems like it never stops geez.. but im trying to help being the great best friend that i am .. haha justt kidding.. wow i am so bored . this speech is retarded, and everwood is not interesting tonight... and alex is at the mall .... and i miss him , and i love him more than annythiiinggg and i CAN NOT WAIT TO GIVE HIM HIS SURPRISE gosh he's amazing, you guys dont even know! i got him a braclet that says boyfriend and i have one the says girlfriend there like the armstrong ones..but not i think theyre cute but brynne thinks theyre gay lol.. oh well he loves it and i got him an alarm clock !!!!! cuz babys always late to school cuz every night we fall asleep on the phone so his alarm to wake him up on his phone deosnt go off, so i got him an alarm clock :] lol... i know were corney ohh welllll he loves me <3 kkkkk im hungary now im gunna go eat
love you all sooooo much
-kimmy
I LOVE YOU BABY YOU ARE THE MOST AMAZING PERSON EVERRR !!
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[18 May 2005|04:24pm] |
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may i just say that i love alex brandon knight more than anything . and no matter how many fights we get into and no matter what happens we only want eachother!! baby im sorry that she put that picture on here i promise i just forgot to take it off. no boys read my livejournal, but i took it off, i love you baby dont be mad at me, im all yours completely . i promise
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[17 May 2005|10:04pm] |
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thought this was cute..
DON’T CHEAT ON US. It may seem foolproof, but really, ITS NOT. we tell our friends everything about everything. Never miss an opportunity to us that we are beautiful. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous. If we slap you hard, you deserved it. Don't be afraid to touch us if you want to. If we're going out with you in the first place, it's because we like being in your arms. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of us are not offended by it...Not all of us eat like birds, a lot of us can eat like whales. Most girls don't mind paying half of everything, but we do discuss these things with our friends. Realize that if you make us pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time! Make sure we get home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping us off, walk us to the door. If you aren't dropping us off, call to be sure we're home safely. If a guy is bothering us, it is your right to beat the shit out of him. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull us closer. Go to a chick flick once in a while, we don't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went. You're dead meat if you can't get along with our pets, parents, and best friends. Be prince charming to our friends, Mr. Polite to our parents, and make sure to be nice to our animals. Don't flirt with our moms...that's just freaky. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make us feel like shit, so be understanding. If you don't like the way we drive, dont say anything about it. If you're officially dating , and you're introducing us to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce us as your girlfriend. Don't stress where you go for every date. we really only want to be with you. If we complain that something hurts, rub it for us without being asked. we are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle. Memorize our birthdays. You forget our birthday you're basically screwed for life. Don't marinade the cologne, but smell good. Don't give us something stupid for our birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. After you've been dating for a while, realize that we really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond
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[16 May 2005|09:51pm] |
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this livejournal thing gets alotta people introuble and it creates alotta drama
i dont know if im gunna keep updating..
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[14 May 2005|11:15pm] |
yay i figured this out..
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[13 May 2005|07:09pm] |
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hello again ,
well i had an okay day today .. i probly have to go to summer school for math though cuz i have so many absenses from his class. but other then that my day was good.. alex and i fought a little last night but thats normal.. we're fine now.. it was stupid i was just tired lol. im sucha nerd.. anyways we got our year books today . theyre soo unbelievabley gay like you ahve no idea... but thattss okay.. i dont really feel like doing anything tonight.. i think everyones going out to the movies.. but i dont think im gunna go ... im just gunna go out to eat with my beautiful parents.. hmmmm i miss alex he just called.. :] okay sorry im done anyways.. i was so focused on chelsea leaving i didnt even think about delie.. yesterday in chapel we had to pray over the seniors.. they all had to get in the middle of the gym on the floor.. and teachers had to come up and students could if we wanted to too, so i went up there and i couldnt reach delie she was in the middle but after i went up to her and i wanted to start crying my eyes out, but i refrained. im saving myself for her graduation in a week.. uhg.. im soo upset i dont want her to leave.. its gunna be weird at school without all the seniors.. it wont be the same.. but my mommy wants to talk to me lol shes on my bed watching laguna beach and singing hilary duff lol shes sucha nut i love her <3
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[11 May 2005|08:49pm] |
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hello beautiful,
well lately ive had a heck of a time trying to get along with people. im just so irratated. like i do absolutely nothing wrong but somehow i catch all this shit for it. i dont understand.. but ill get over it
OH YESS and i have to say this im not trying to be mean but if anyone has a problem with what i write about in my livejournal, profile, or away messages then dont read them , its that simple this is my stuff and my business and thats fine if you want to read it but dont make comments or get mad about it. i have every right to write about whatever i want and none of you can say anything about it. and i refuse to go friends only or block you guys because its your choice to read it. so if you have a problem just block me and dont read my livejournal.. and dont get mad at people who have absolutely nothing to do with anything thats going on.
now that i got that out... i love alex brandon and theres nothing that's going to stop me from saying that.. if you dont like it deal with it
i miss liz too ..
my life is kinda going downhill, the only good thing is my babys back.. other than that everythings pretty much crap. i have one of my best friends here pissed at me cause of the stupidest stuff... im just trying to look out for her. and i hate that shes basically believing him and taking his side over mine. thats what it feels like anyways.. i care about her so much and this whole thing just hurts ...
-- when if feels like everyone turned their backs on you .. ill be here
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[09 May 2005|08:01pm] |
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wow. okay so now that i dont have anything everyone can't read im not going friends only. i figure if you have a problem with something im doing or writing about DONT READ MY LIVEJOURNAL. its that simple.
but anyways alot happened this weekend, i stayed with liz and we had a blast, as usual.. i didnt get to see sarah that much just on sunday for church.. we went on an adventure to save alot. holy hannah it was like a whole nother world there. dont go. and i saw alex.............. that was uhm interesting, okay and i must say i felt like crappppp for everything that happened( im pretty sure all of you know the story) UNTIL he told me that they all thought that a certain someone was the one to fianlly take him away from me. that was the funniest thing i had ever heard. honestly people dont know.. if they knew how we were together they would know that they didnt really have a lasting chance.. not trying to be mean but same for every other guy that i was with, i just stopped being with other guys cuz i knew i was gunna end up breaking their hearts, and since im a girl i feel for people who get broken hearts, and guys really dont, so he just didnt... idont know its hard to explain. i still feel bad, but then again they put themselves in that position.. so now that ive vented about that, alex and i arent offically going back out, cause i kinda just wanna wait alittle bit and get everything together.. but i do love him with all of my heart, and i am wearing my rings again. soo yeah. i am extremely happy that my babys back :]
today was interesting, i kinda feel bad for micah he like can't let it go and i really really want him to... i dont want alex to worry. josh is understanding about the whole thing, i just talked to him online he was super nice about it. i think he knew it was gunna happen.. so he kinda braced himself.
after school tabby and i went to McDonalds to yell at them , cause this morning kyndra and i did a power point project in speech on eating disorders and obesity , and our visual aid was McDonalds cheeseburgers.. so i convenitally didnt feel good this morning so that i could wait til they started serving lunch lol. i got there i ordered 18 cheeseburgers two chicken nuggets( for my and kyna) and two fries .. and i ordered chocolate milkshakes but they were all out? so i looked in the bag when i got the food and it really did look like 18 were they. but i got to school started passing them out and figured out they werent. uhg i was so angry, but at least me and kyna got food haha. then in 4th we disected cats, OMG it was horrible no one in my group would disect so i had to and it was a calico which broke my heart i thought of dolly marie , me and kyndra put paper towls over our cats heads so we didnt have to look at their little faces :[ ... but anywayssss back to what i did after school, so yea tabby and i went to mcdonalds to yell at them.. i wanted a refund but they wouldnt give me one instead they gave us 8 double cheeseburgers i was like are you kidding me does it look like the two of us could finish these? honestly, so we went out behind mcdonalds to look for the homeless man thats always out there, and of course the one day we actually have soemthing to give him.. hes not there... so instead we took them to work and gave them out to everyone. they greatly apprecited our kindness ..then we went tanning, then to old navy to look for purses, then to the mall to buy stuff, then i took her home. and we had some interesting talks lol. we had an eventful afternoon. it was fun i love hanging out with her. she makes me laugh :] ... and now i just got home my mommy brought me home wendys so im gunna go eat that and wait for baby to get home ..
i love you all *
ohh yes and i might get a myspace.. i dont know yet though .. still thinking about it .
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[04 May 2005|06:11pm] |
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okay .. welllll life has gotten dramatic over the past few days... found out stuff that id rather not have happening to me right now.. but it possibly is so im going to deal with it.. school has sucked. i just want it to be over. boys havent been the best. (still really confused). ohhh yea i almost forgot im going friends only because apparently im developing an 'i hate kim club' in orlando.. so i think before i go into detail about everything in my life. i will post this then make it friends only .. :] !!!
comment if you arent a friend and would like to be
love you all <3*
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hey ... omgoodness im so confused.. i know what i want..but then again i dont...i talked to 'him' today, he told me some stuff that makes me not want to get over him, but then again i know i have to.. because it seems like all he does is lie now cause he's soo confused.. and i wanna be here for him..but he keeps pushing me away..then josh sent me an email last night that made me cry, because okay here i have this amazing man who cares so much for me, he's going places in life he's beautiful, older, nice, knows EXACTLY what he wants, and he's not afraid to go after it. but im still so in love with alex, and somethings holding me back, and i hate that josh is leaving for college so now hell be like 5 states away from me with all these college girls.. but then i think about it and i really dont care... thats why i dont think i should be with him.. im just mad at myself for not caring because he cares so much about me and what i want.. and it seems like alex doesnt... wow okay ill just let you guys read the email so you can see how incredibely messed up i am ...
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hello beautiful,
its like 3 30 in the morning we just got to my aunts house and i have to wake up in 4 hours to look at that college..i would've called but i didnt want to wake you up i know you have school tomorrow so i decided i would email you to let you know how amazing you are, and how it kills me that you're upset right now. i hate it when you're like this. You deserve so much more than what he's giving you. You don't deserve to have to wait around until he makes up his mind between all these other girls. I want to be with you. We just had that long talk the other night and no everything you told me doesn't make me not want to be with you. I care for you so much, I'm not gunna let you go just like that. I'm not that dumb. I know you're not over alex yet, and that's fine I will wait as long as i have to, because i know i don't deserve someone as great as you. You mean everything to me i don't even think you understand how much i care for you. Oh yeah, i got your message and no I'm not just feeding your crap or "leading you on" I'm not that immature. I have better things to do with my time then that. And unlike him, I'm not confused i know exactly what i want. I want you but i want ALL of you, i don't want to have to worry about you wanting to be with him, because I am leaving in 2 months for college and i want to know that when I'm there i have you. That's the only way I'll get through this, is with you. But I'll give you as much time as you need to think about this, you told me you needed space so thats what I'm going to give you. And you can call me when you know for sure what you want. And if you end up not choosing me, if you want to try and get him back that's fine, just please don't be afraid to tell me, i still want to be here for you....i really do think im falling in love with you...I don't know if that scares you or not lol, i hope it doesn't cause that's how i feel...but I'm going to try and get some sleep, call me as soon as you know what you want, ill miss you baby
goodnight
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[30 Apr 2005|11:52pm] |
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we spent the night together, I spilled my guts. And I honestly wont be surprised if he says he's through with me. "Please look at me. Why don't you want me to help you?" It's just too hard for me to trust anyone anymore... I could tell him how I feel, but I'm too scared. I have a hard enough time admitting to myself how I feel about him. Sometimes he just makes me feel so good, like maybe I can be whole again. But I still can't bring myself to trust anything he says. i once thought i knew someone so well, and i trusted everything he told me, and it all turned out to be a lie. i know i know its not his fault that my ex did that to me.. but i still cant bring myself to trust another human being now, not after everythings thats happened..
o yea and to my friends.. I love you and i would anything just to make sure that your every need was taken care of. And Im sorry if sometimes it seems like I don’t want to talk, or I dont care, I do. Its just my mind races with thoughts and emotions that I cant stop. Im listening, and I do care.
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i had an amazing night !
this is just what i needed ...
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[26 Apr 2005|10:52pm] |
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love sick -- you block out everyone.you feel so tired,
because you haven't slept in forever. you know that he'll be in your dreams,
but you don't want to stay awake laying in bed crying either. you're starving but
you cant eat because you're starving for him &
every memory just leaves you a bigger hole in your heart. even your clothes remind you of him..what you wore when you hung out. you can still smell him all over them, even though his scent hasn't been there for long. you wish his scent
would be stuck on your but you know you'd be pulling at your skin trying to get him off you. you're online, he signs on, and you want to yell at him to go away,
but you just watch the screen waiting for him to say anything but
then he signs off and you tear yourself apart for not saying anything to him. you stop talking to your friend, they get worried and try comforting you but they just make you
feel worse because they think they know,
but they don't
.. they don't have a damn clue.
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[23 Apr 2005|03:08pm] |
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not alot to update on . EXCEPT kyndra works with me at crispers now ! yay im so excited tonights her first night :] .. some more fun people are working like tabby and alex .. well those are the only ppl i know of .. but anyywayysss last night i went to a party with kyndra and brynne rhyan and abbie.. had fun with the verot soccer boys ? they were on a scavenger hunt and kyndra and i helped them out with alotta stuff they needed : they cut my hair, i kicked this kid in the balls, kyndra punched this kid in his face, and she singed his butt lol i of course got a picture, and we had to do some other crazy stuff that im not gunna mention.. then bree and kyna came back to my house we got home super late. but it was okay my daddy was a little mad but hes okay now.. i must go get ready for work now so i will talk to you beautiful people later !<3
HE DRIVES IN 45 DAYS ! I CAN NOT WAIT I MISS HIM SO MUCH ..
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Well me and my lady had our first big fight
So I drove around till I saw the neon lights
at a corner bar
It just seemed right, so I pulled up
Not a soul around but the old bar keep
down at the end lookin' half asleep
He walked up and said "What'll it be?"
I said,''The good stuff"
He didn't reach around for the whiskey
He didn't pour me a beer
His blue eyes kind of went misty
He said, "You can't find that here."
Cause its the first long kiss on a second date
your momma's all worried when you get home late
Droppin the ring in the spaghetti plate
cause your hands are shakin so much
It's the way that she looks with the rice in her hair
Eatin' burnt suppers the whole first year
and askin for seconds to keep her from tearin' up
Yeah man, that's the good stuff
He grabbed a carton of milk
and he poured a glass
then I smiled and said,
"I'll have some of that."
We sat there and talked as an hour passed
like old friends
Saw a black and white picture and it caught my stare
It was a pretty girl with bouffant hair
He said, "That's my Bonnie, taken 'bout a year after we wed."
He said, "Spent 5 years in the bottle, when the cancer took her from me,
But Ive been sober 3 years now
'Cause the one thing stronger than the whiskey
Was the sight of her holdin' my baby girl
The way she adored that string of pearls
I gave her the day that our youngest boy Earl,
married his high school love
and it's a new t-shirt saying "I'm a grandpa"
and being right there as our time got small,
And holdin her hand when the good Lord called her up
Yeah man, That's the good stuff
He said, ''When you get home she'll start to cry,
When she says, ''Im sorry,'' say ''So am I''
Then look into those eyes so deep in love
and drink it up
'Cause thats the good stuff
That's the good stuff
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[17 Apr 2005|08:43pm] |
k wow i dont think ive ever been this confused before..
i dont know what to do anymore..
theres so much drama in my life.. things change every day i find it pointless to update too much drama
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[13 Apr 2005|08:58pm] |
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hello my beautifuls ,
welll allott has happened in this past week . dont worry all good stuff well .. kinda okay ill update you on the highlights
FRIDAY- i broke up with alex . cuz .. well cause hes just not the person i fell in love with. hes changed so much, and alot of other things have changed too and i just couldnt handle it anymore . so i broke up with him . and havent talked to hiim since. so all my friends are very proud
WEEKEND- i spent it with brynne and ashley and micah :]
TUESDAY- micah asked me out . and i of course said yes . :]
then today i went to school blah ive been soo unbelieabley tired lately it sucks. but i found out bad news and im all worried. micah has to have surgery :[ he left school early today to go to the doctor and they told him that he broke his hand. for all of you that doesnt know how he did. he got into a fight and punched kyle . it wasnt worth it cuz now his hands alll messed up :[[[[ so yea that was the bad part of my day.. work wasnt bad .. on the way to work i was driving on 41 and i pulled up next to jason it was funny we raced and he beat me soo bad .. i like floored it and he barely pressed on the gas. it was sad . but i think im getting sick my throat is killing me it like hurts to swallow. but annywhoo im gunna go take a shower then micah and i are watching american idol together !! ill update later byeee <33
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